About Adoption
Giving up the adoption process was so painful I can’t even tell you how much it hurt. I was living in Thailand for two years and for those two years I looked at every little girl I saw and tried to imagine if MY daughter would look like her. Michelle comments that I should go ahead with that plan, but I don’t see how that could ever happen.
I’ve moved back to Oklahoma to be near family and am having a hard time finding work. Even when I find work my salary will always be a fraction of what my husband and I made overseas. I can barely support myself and adoption is so VERY expensive.
I have wanted to adopt for years, even before we know my husband had an infertility problem, now I’m trying to get over that Idea a little bit. I just don’t see how I could make it happen.
Instead, even though I will be 37 next month, I hope that someday in the not too distant future I can try my hand at getting pregnant again.
I wasn’t able mentally to blog for some time. My husband and I broke up in January. We aren’t divorced yet because without his medical insurance I would be in a tough situation so we are trying to wait until I can find a decent job with my own insurance before we do the legal process.
In Ok I would be lucky to make 30k a year but the way things are looking I can’t even find anything in my families local area to make that. Less than 30k a year leaves no room for a Thai adoption that from the US would run somewhere around 20k.
Ok I’m rambling sorta now so I’m going to give it up. We’ll come back to these subjects later I’m sure.
~S
